aisyahrazak

believe in God

2012-03-05T06:46:00.000-08:00

the best part of life is believe in God.

believe in everything happen has it own reason.

He never give you such a huge problem if you can't handle it.

He never make your life miserable except if you ask for it

*in many ways such as forget Him,never ask forgiveness for whatever sin you had made before etc.

and yet He always hear your pray even though late at night or in the middle of thunder.

there's no such thing that the door for "doa' close after office hour and also during weekends.

our religion is simple dude

just keep uphold in your faith :)

trouble is actually a key to get close with God.

whenever we face problem,what is the first thing we do?

pray and keep praying.

and remind back all the sin we had done before and believe that it's a punishment for everything bad we had done.

God have it own reason for everything happen.

keep you faith high

and never regret (:

let's sum up!

2012-02-24T10:06:00.000-08:00

heyyy people! how's your day so far?

kinda busy lately with tonnes of assignments,quizzes,testes and presentations.

*mata dah macam zombie je -.-

life as a students macam graph.

starting dia okay je mendatar boleh lepak-lepak lagi but then bila nak dekat final terus menaik dengan mendadaknya.

blamed the lecturers not the system.

sebab sukati je diorang nak tunda semua bagai kan kan?

*final lagi 2 minggu still mengutuk lecturer :D

hari-hari pergi kelas macam makcik-makcik pergi pasar beli ikan keli je.

selekeh nak mati.

selipar jamban pun jadi kalau dah lambat.

mungkin juga overdose.

done with all the grand events for this second semester.

ALHAMDULILAH :)

berhempas pulas prepared everything sampai tak makan seminggu

*okay itu exaggerate :D

first event:

selaut harapan anbu illam

doing some fun activities with old folks and diasble children

too much fun la!

second event:

educational talk

interesting part is the slide show.

quite touching, the pictures describe everything through the song :')

inilah hidup budak TESL yang insyaallah bakal menjadi seorang guru yang bersemangat 1Malaysia.

*ini melebih

always inspire never expire (:

i used to be a SUPERMAN

2012-01-21T05:15:00.000-08:00

yes,selama ni memang tak pernah bawak motor.

sangat creepy duh bawak motor without any solid metal as a protection.

kalau kereta ada la jugak pintu bagai.

just depends on how you drive the motorcycle and the helmet that you wear.

kat college,cik comel amoy bawak scooter comel gile.

cute je kalau bawak.

ahaha

*belum tengok lagi cara dia bawak

hilang ke-comelan

hari ahad kalau tak silap

baru balik dari kedai mamak with izzati.

dia bawak then dia offer nak bawak tak

for surela i jawab NAK! NAK! NAK!

dengan experience yang mentah dalam hal bawak motor ni bawak la jugak

motor auto so mcm lagi senang dari manual yang pancit-pancit nak masuk gear.

first, okay lepak lagi

pemandu berhemah slow je bwk.

time kat roundabout okay la lulus

naik bukit

lemah rasanya,macam tak lepas je

rempuh jugak

last-last masuk longkang jugak

ahahaha!

motor landing slow motion je,tapi sebab dah jatuh kat longkang so takde tempat nak pijak

decision paling bodoh sekali lompat masuk longkang.

longkang dia besar gile

jatuh dengan oakai helmet nya lawak

izzati pun jatuh tapi dia macam best la jugak

jatuh atas 'tilam'

lebam satu badan sebab tampung izzati.nasib baik tak patah tulang belakang.ahaha

just a small cut on my palm macam harry potter la juga (:

time bawak tu jumpa aqil and g-din tengah jogging.

tegur-tegur la jugak

last-last sekali diorang yang gelak terguling-guling

'rugi aku tak bawak camera echa'

tak perlu sangat lah kan.

terima kasih banyak-banyak untuk post ye aqil.

promoted aku lebih sangat

lepas tu bawak lagi motor.

never say never !

lagak macam superman je

makin bertambah cool la lepas ni

melaka should be proud to have a cool people like me

*puked

JANUARY make me feel older

2012-01-21T04:47:00.000-08:00

JANUARY

5th JANUARY 2012

too early la people

but still i love january.

new chapter in my life

the starting for everything

not so busy time

and lastly my birthday bebeh!

on 5th January i had had great time with my friends.

this year i celebrated in melaka with them.

i slept at 9pm and woke up at 12 o' clock

too much excited kot

ahaha

actually i woke up because IZNI called me

the first person who wished me followed by AMAL and ANIS

you guys really sweet lah.

then shiela,jiah,sya,nad,wani texted me.

my BFF

:')

i had sore throat that night

sangat malu bila ADEEB FIQRI called

ahahaha

suara macam ELLA

thanks for the wish DATO

I thought SUNNY already forgotten my birthday

he called me the next day after class.

'baru ingat nak tarik muka,sampai hati lupa birthday'

'actually nak call semalam,but takut you dah tido *alasan'

you owe me a lunch kan kan

jangan buat lupa

thanks AFAF,AZIZI,AMIRUL,SHERRY habiskan creadit just to call me.

thanks anis for the toblerone

yatt for the cute key-chain capital letter E (echa)

ABEYO for the key chain

SANJI for the cute hippopotamus figure

*but why hippopotamus because i'm FAT??

and lastly for those who wished me through facebook and twitter

too many,i can't mentioned your name

i love being myself

because i have such a great people in my life

family and friends

*the last year for number 1 still standing,

next year the new beginning of number 2 (:

2012 the year when NUMBER 1 still standing

2012-01-21T04:23:00.000-08:00

assalamualaikum and hello people!

HAPPY NEW YEAR YOU ALL !

*not too late to wish right?

because of my my broadband doesn't work, i have to keep my intended to post.

now, i can freely post anything what i want in my room

thanks to Wi-Fi (:

so what's your hopes for this new year?

feeling great to keep alive?

ahahaha

celebrating new year alone in my room in melake and watching movies.

it's not about how you're celebrating your new year. just enough with your hopes and wish (:

should i say bye-bye 2011?

thanks for making my life full of colors and happy moments.

most of all, thank you Allah for giving me another chance

feeling very excited this year !

a great day with great people

2011-12-29T05:27:00.000-08:00

planning to have a small picnic with the GREAT PEOPLE

who are the GREAT PEOPLE?

my friends la (:

just to spend my whole day talking with them,eating and have fun.

that's what girls do.

deciding to go to ECO PARK but clouds seem like don't like us to have a picnic there.

thinking all the obstacles that might happen, we change our location to POLO.

not as pretty as eco park

but,alhamdulillah

we still have place to eat and have fun together.

the menu:

spaghetti

sandwiches

peach cobbler

junk food

the GREAT PEOPLE:

nini izwani
sya
nadiah
me,myself
and the rest

alhamdulillah still have chance to meet them.the last day i met them during my high school
form 5
*lama tak?

maaf,saya tak mencarut pun (:

baju hijau pengaruh HULK

meet my friends
forever and ever friends

i love you
no, i love you more
no, i love you the most (:

berlagak tidak bertempat

2011-12-27T02:50:00.000-08:00

nak berlagak pun kene ikut tempat eh?

maksudnya macam mana?

masa kecik-kecik dulu bila dapat pensil warna LUNA 24 mesti berlagak tunjuk kat kawan-kawan.

*kau hado?

kalau menang tempat pertama lumba lari 10meter pun sibuk gantung medal 2hari 2 malam.

bila dapat result elok dalam SPM mestilah call semua orang.

SPM exam paling susah beb,aku mampu score.

itu contoh lagak yang bagi aku biarlah,budak-budak

mana matang lagi kan? (:

tapi bila kau berlagak tentang sesuatu yang memang tak boleh masuk akal.

aku memang tak boleh terima.

"aku baru balik dari ~~church~~, belajar dengan ~~sister~~.sempat juga minum ~~air holy~~"

hahaha.

kepala kau masuk air ke?

apa yang kau nak banggakan sangat dengan statement tu?

memangla untuk main-main,tapi ntah aku tak faham perlu ke?

umur 18 tahun beb,dah suku abad kau pegang title agama islam.

mungkin nak tunjukkan yang kau serba tahu.tapi bukan begini caranya.

mungkin juga cara untuk tunjukkan kita ni budak-budak baru nak up.

*statement berani mati

dah boleh fikir sendiri kot apa yang betul kan?

ini lagak tidak bertempat ya you all.

cuba lagi sekali dekat tempat lain

ini BAKAT

2011-12-24T09:02:00.000-08:00

why I post this video?

don't have any specific reason

just to share with you guys because he's one of the student UiTM melake

*chingching

selalu jugak tengok video dia.

lagi best layan sebab dia jenis in-group

kalau matlutfi or inianwarhadi selalu solo.

apa-apa pun semua terbaik

"where are you from?"

"korea"

"south-korea"

"yes"

"soul?"

"no,no other part"

korean really cool because they can speak in utara nohh

haha!

one in the million

2011-12-24T08:34:00.000-08:00

I want to be the "one in the million" not your million girls

sumpah, aku memang rasa awkward bila bercakap tentang cinta bagai.

sebab aku sendiri tak faham.

aku cuma harap biar aku jadi satu dalam sejuta,bukan yang ke-sejuta.

itu je harapan aku.

aku suka bercerita tentang kawan baik aku semua time sekolah dulu-dulu.

kawan memang ramai,tapi yang betul-betul setia-nya masa aku jatuh bangun tak ramai.

cara nak tahu kawan kau setia atau tak,cuba buat observation:

1) time cikgu PJ suruh lari satu padang dengan memekiknya ada tak kawan kau kat sebelah bila kau lari palingg lambat?

2) kalau assignment kau kene tendang dengan lecturer ada tak dia nak back-up dengan cakap salah dia juga?

3) kalau kau terlambat bangun untuk kelas ada tak dia nak offer naik kereta dia atau ignore?

cukup lah dengan 3 tips aku tu (:

aku ada sorang kawan yang sumpah aku sayang gile

si GIGI HARDCORE

dia la yang selalu dengar masalah aku bila-bila masa pun aku rasa susah.

kalau kau call dia tengah-tengah malam pun dia akan layan.

walaupun the truth is dia paling tak suka orang kacau dia kalau dah tido.

demi kawan bukan?

macam mana aku boleh kawan dengan dia eh?

semuanya sebab YM

*zaman dulu-dulu popular kan?

bila aku rasa susah,mesti dia dengar je.

tak pernah dia balas " I takde masa nak dengar benda ni semua" "I sibuk la"

even if I cried pun he still cool.

nak cakap heartless pun tak jugak.but at last dia akan cuba make a joke yang tak berapa nak lawak.

baik kan?

itula kawan saya

baik orangnya

tapi bila orang kata

"tak pernah wujud istilah kawan baik daripada jantina yang berbeza,hanya perempuan kawan baik kita.bila kamu mengikat satu perhubungan nanti,suami itulah kawan baik kamu yang pertama dan terakhir"

aku salute kata-kata dia.

baru sedar selama ni aku sudah tersilap besar.

aku tak nak jadi orang ke-sejuta kau bagi kata-kata manis

aku tak nak jadi orang ke-sejuta kau berjanji semua

aku tak nak jadi orang ke-sejuta kau sayang bagai

aku tak nak jadi orang ke-sejuta kau letakkan sebagai wall paper dia phone

aku tak nak jadi orang ke-sejuta jadi person to call in case of emergency

aku tak nak jadi orang ke-sejuta kau call every night

aku tak nak jadi orang ke-sejuta kau paling percaya

aku tak nak jadi orrang ke-sejuta kau share segala benda yang best

aku tak nak jadi orang ke-sejuta

serious aku tak ingin

dan paling penting, aku tak nak jadi orang ke-sejuta yang menambahkan lagi dosa kau.

biarlah aku jadi orang yang pertama dalam sejuta kau buat itu semua.

tapi bukan sekarang.

bila masa kita ada hubungan yang sah.

masa itu baru betul bukan?

baru aku rasa bangga nak bercerita dengan kawan-kawan.

biarlah dia yang terakhir kau buat semua tu berulang-kali.

sebab aku sayang kau lagi sebagai kawan

jangan bebankan lagi bahu kau dengan dosa

reason why I smile

2011-12-19T20:57:00.000-08:00

ada orang text tanya " eh,you tengah angau ke? post stock-stock jiwang je."

*obvious sangat ke beb? :D

orang kalau tengah bercinta senyum je sepanjang hari.

kalau ada kereta percik air lopak pun steady je lagi.

maklumlah, hati berbunga.

itu orang bercinta.

aku takk

cuma hati tengah senang,baik jangan banyak tanya.

sometime it is needed to be a brave person.

kalau nak harapkan other side yang start the move memang tak jalanlah.

sampai ke tua, rasa menyesal seumur hidup.

sometime it is need to be tak-tau-malu.

bukannya nak menggedik it just you're really curious to know that person.

right?

bak kata kawan saya,

"kadang-kadang kita sibuk cari jodoh kita jauh-jauh,sampaikan kita tak sedar rupanya jodoh kita dekat sangat dengan kita.cuma kita je tak perasan."

macam mana nak perasaan kalau yang dicari tu muka handsome bagai.

yang bertenggek kat depan mata tu, suam-suam je

*demand habis la katakan :D

bila dulu kau susah cari aku memanjang,mulut tu laju je bercakap.

janji sini-sana.

bila dah senang,ada perempuan sini-sana haram kau nak call aku.

mungkin aku ni pusat kebajikan untuk kau.

hidup, cuma dah tak ber-roh

it's your choice to do whatever you want to do.

it's your right to left me behind alone without any word or specific reason.

I'm cool with it.

but take note that

I'm not that kind of person.

I'm much more awesome than you and I happy with my life.

bag-packing to EUROPE

2011-12-17T07:28:00.000-08:00

saturday

2.00 pm

17.12.2011

bag-packing to Europe you all !

percaya tak?

muntah ramai-ramai (:

hari yang paling tak di-planned.

rent a car mula-mula nak pegi makan lunch je.

then, the owner cakap minimum 4 hours.

apa kau nak buat 4 jam di masjid tanah,melaka yang tak seberapa.

majunya sebab ada KFC

kami berempat redah je satu masjid tanah.

after lunch 'ada lagi 3 jam apa nak buat?'

jom gerak ke pantai !

pakai kemeja denim yang stock-stock nak pergi beli barang dekat tesco cheng je, dengan sandal tak berapa kalis air

jom redah melaka!

dari tanjung bidara sampai ke kuala sungai baru.

lagi berapa kilometer je dah sampai Port Dickson.

haha.

*terima kasih kepada signboard yang banyak membantu.

our dinner for today:

ikan siakap masak 3 rasa

sotong goreng tepung

tom yam

*sumbangan ~~iklas~~ zainurakilah (:

sunset tepi pantai memang S U P E R B

hari ini pujian tinggi harus diberikan kepada izzati yang dengan beraninya membawa kereta manual setelah 6 bulan tak pernah bawak.

ignore mati enjin 4-5 kali dan ~~fail naik bukit~~.

sampai pak haji pun ketepi,enjin brutal habis.

haha

such a great day with hanan,izzati and akilah.

spending my last sem with something that can be remembered forever.

thanks to D7000, akilah for the pictures to be kept in my album

you smile, I smile

2011-12-10T01:05:00.000-08:00

yesterday my friends and I went to jusco melaka.

actually this idea is from one of my friend,akila.we decided to rent a car till night but then, 3 more friends want to join.so,why not?

the more the merrier (:

3pm straight away to jusco melaka with amoy,yatt,hanan and kila.

nothing specific to do just walking around and shopping.

ombak rindu?

tak layan la filem melayu jiwang-jiwang.confirm wayang penuh dengan couple yang terlebih emosi.haihh

kila terlebih excited she told me that she want to buy a speaker I thought a compact mini one.but then guess what, she carried a huge plastic bag with the real speaker with full bass.

salute!

lunch at pizza hut.the feeling when is same like I'm eating in coffee prince.

surrounded by handsome-handsome waiters.

* gulp

budak-budak after SPM sibuk la cari kerja part time.

seriously sangat handsome.

setiap kali the waiters walking passed through our table,semua tercengang dan mata bersinar-sinar.

haha!

haihh,ini la hidup tidak berlaki

*ayat tak boleh blah :D

nampak je lelaki handsome mula la berangan

(;

the day might come

2011-12-06T21:41:00.000-08:00

it has been a long time since I stay in melaka and didn't post anything to my blog.

boo me !

there are some reasons why I never open my lovely blog or facebook

(but i'm still active my twitter 24/7)

1.because my broadband doesn't work at all.it stuck !

2. my schedule never give me a little time to have a cup of coffee and sit in front of my laptop.

3.too much distractions. I MEAN it. assignments

4.I'm too busy become a tesl student for this new semester.

guess what,for this current semester so many things have changed up.

including my faculty,class mates,lecturer,etc

starting my day with hiking up the hill to the class,wearing my baju kurung and holding a bunch of books.doesn't it sound cool?

not cool enough?

okay,what about walking during a rainy days no umbrella at all because it's same if you are using umbrella or not.

and suddenly came a bitch car driving along the road and SPLASH!

it's not end yet,opened the window with a big smile and said 'jalan tengah hujan kak?'

sangat la bitch that person.

get lost with your old car la dude.setakat drive kereta proton fuel pun you're using your parents money or maybe PTPTN and need to pay back to government tak payah la nak showed off sangat.

oh btw,if you're just diploma student taking such a lame course that doesn't make you get big job with big money tak payah la.

if you think you're cool enough to drive a car at such a young age.no you're not.

mind your manner,attitude and the way you're thinking.

then I might consider you.

perhaps,UiTM need some new rules.no cars in campus.

sediakan parking lot for students outside the campus.in campus we all same.

equality.

or maybe cars can be use in certain area.it can control the traffic jam and think about other students that walking by the road.do I have to give up and let the car pass first?

sometimes it doesn't necessary to showed off all the thing you have on this earth because it might hurt other feeling who doesn't have the chance to get it.

rasa itu sudah hilang

2011-11-15T08:26:00.000-08:00

perasaan 8 tahun lepas lain,tak macam sekarang.

"kalau dulu every weekends,abah mesti ajak aku naik motor pegi lepak breakfast dengan dia.masa tu agak cool la sebab dalam ramai-ramai adik-beradik dia suka ajak aku.maybe sebab aku suka minum air teh tarik,terasa macam lepak dengan kawan.

naik motor pakai helmet besar,angin sepoi-sepoi bahasa memang tidur la.nasib baik aku tak pernah jatuh tertinggal kat atas jalan,kalau kasut tu selalu la.

malam pula,lepak kat mamak tengok bola.terasa hebat gila.tengah malam baru balik.

dulu-dulu WWE popular.ayah aku sekali dengan aku join tengok tv.astro dulu mana wujud lagi.lepas tu selalu kene marah dengan mak sebab wrestling adik kecik sampai berdarah gigi.haha. tapi aku tak kisah,sebab abah mesti back-up aku.

pernah satu hari aku tanya ayah aku,"abah,kenapa kulit aisyah gelap?"

"aisyah suka main tengah-tengah panas,bola la lumba lari la,mana tak gelap"

lawak kan jawapan dia.tapi aku tetap terima.

kalau time dia cuti memang cool gila.

tepat pukul 1.05pm mesti dia dah terpacak diri sebelah kereta yang di parking bawah pokok baik punya.tunggu aku balik sekolah beb,kau ada?

bukan selalu merasa,sebab selalunya mak aku ambil pukul 2 la 3 la sampai budak datang sekolah pakai uniform KOKO aku masih pakai baju sekolah warna putih kain biru.malu beb!

lepas tu dia tanya buat apa kat sekolah?

mesti la belajar tapi kurang ajar la pulak cakap macam tu kan.so aku ceritala dengan bangganya buat ini la itu la.

sifat dia yang paling tak boleh blah,bila ada lagu oldies on the spot dia suruh aku diam sambil kuatkan volume sampai gegar kereta.lagu kenny.G, eagles,aerosmith dan seangkatan.

habis lagu baru aku boleh sambung balik cerita tadi.

-.-

satu lagi tabiat aku, tak suka mandi.

bukan apa,aku jimat duit cukai rakyat.haha

before dia pegi masjid mesti dah siap warning,"before abah balik aisyah mesti dah mandi"

ada aku kisah?

bila dengar bunyi kereta dia kat luar baru aku terhegeh-hegeh capai tuala.

kakak-kakak aku memang terbaikla.diorang selalu back-up aku.

"echa,abah dah balik cepat!"

aku paling degil.

lumrah.

itu 8 tahun lepas.

sekarang sudah lain.

dia utara aku selatan.

kalau dulu setiap minggu balik,sekarang setahun sekali jumpa.

kalau dulu nama dia appear je kat phone terus angkat,sekarang kalau boleh nak off phone.

cari alasan sebanyak mungkin kenapa tak jawab.

kalau boleh jangan cari aku,langsung.

ntah,kenapa begini.

kita dah tak macam dulu.

lain sungguh.

duduk dalam kereta aku diam.

awkward macam tak pernah kenal je.

dia cakap sepatah aku sepatah.

sebab itu,bila ayah kawan-kawan aku,aku terlebih mesra.

kadang-kadang terlepas juga daripada panggil uncle terus jadi ayah.

haha.

tapi aku jelas,masih sayang dia.cuma aku perlu masa.

is it a matter of choice?

2011-11-13T06:59:00.000-08:00

lately, I'had watched City Sisters on TV Alhijrah. It such a good channel,full of knowledges yet entertain myself.I didn't expect to watch that show because none of my family's member watch that channel.

The show consists of beautiful sisters wearing hijab in a proper way,which means they covered their chest although they all wearing pashmina,shawls and all kind of latest style.That is what I love most. all the presenters are from U.K,If I'm not mistaken.they talked about random issues about us,the muslimah all over the world,our right in education,Ramadhan,how to gain deen and etc.

what make it more interesting, they are not just sit on the chairs and talk randomly and giving out their thoughts.they have many slots such as cooking time,tips,how to wear hijab,viewers feedback and many more.something to share with you guys,the presenters are muslimah who are new in islam.

Elizabeth Leonard for example,she said

"Before Islam I used to tell everyone I was an atheist but the truth is I had never really researched religion fully enough to make that statement. And as soon as I started looking in to Islam….look what happened Masha Allah!! "

the most interesting episode that caught my eyes are about hijab.

what is hijab?

what is the proper way to wear hijab?

is it our freedom to choose?

is it an obligation to allah?

or is it a trend?

what do you think?

I believe it's not our choices,as muslim that is the only choice that we have.but it's not a burden at all, no, I'm proud to be a muslim.we have the faith we believe in Allah,and we know everything happen has it own reason.but why we make it as a trend?

why?

I'm not pointing to anyone.I'm just giving out my own statement regarding this issue.

before this we all been exposed to bawal style,simple covered our chest yet nice.but people re-arrange it by themselves to make it more stylist.loose style,pinned one side on the head and let the other side just like that.

then,we have shawl.such a phenomena after yuna make a come back with her own style. twist it on the head up to 3 times,or just twist it to the back of the head and it's done.beads at the bottom of the shawl,the materials,colour.

back to pashmina,old style wearing by arabian women because the frabric is thicker and wider than shawl.still,people get use to it although malaysia is a hot place.

now,we have turban,african style.wrapped on your head and you're done.

just cover your head not the neck.

hoodie style.when the wind pass by your head look alike an alien.it's true.

whatever your style is it.it's not wrong.but is your style really cover your chest,hair,neck and ears?are they really suit to you as a muslimah?

are you really show a good quality as a muslimah?

islam is simple,as long as we know the boundaries between the good and the bad,between the necessary and unimportant thing.

I'm also trying to be a better muslimah.I know that i'm not perfect.let's we together try to be a better person,insyaallah.

on the other side

2011-11-08T05:17:00.000-08:00

hi people!

it's been a long time since my last post.

as usual, malas and lot of things to do which are more important than updating my blog.

i had ate enough of meat for this raya korban.

breakfast,lunch,dinner everything is meat.

seriously gile.haha

just back from kenduri held by my neighbour,akikah for his little baby.

again,everything is meat

kari daging,what else?

okay enough with meat.

yesterday was my friend's birthday,nini

a shorty girl,acts like my mum,always nagging BUT she loves me (:

she called me.that's weird because why she called me?credit jalan weh.

oh,free call for her birthday.

haha!

we talked for an hour.panas telinga!

just random stories,about her life in Uni,mine,our friends.

then she asked about my exam.

'so how's your final?doing good?'

already got the result la.

talking about my result,i was so frustrated and not expect that kind of result.

so i shared my problem with her.

i said that i have ruined my own life.

there is no future for me to pursue my study in tesl.

everything getting worst!

hey chill la babeh,who said you have ruined your life.

nobody but you,yourself.

my lecturer said so.

to pursue degree in the same course i have to get 3.00> and band 4 at least.

she's not the one who decides how's your life will be.

ingat tuhan.dia penentu segalanya.

pray for Him to send you a guidance.

insyaallah everything will be okay.

baru teringat betapa jauhnya aku daripada Dia.

ya allah,what have i done?

i'm always thinking negative about myself.

tak sedar yang Dia Maha Mendengar.

maybe He test me,how well i'm handling that kind of situation,facing a problem.

now i realise there is something within something

on the other side

adilnya di mana?

2011-11-05T07:59:00.000-07:00

raya esok,mood sepatutnya chill sambil layan orang takbir dan memikirkan kerbau 5 ekor nak masak esok.

lain pula bagi aku.

gempak aku dengar citer diorang semua.

aku score dean list beb!

aku score 3.49 bro!

aku tak main la,4.00 terus baru gempak.

*riak sungguh berkata-kata

kisah aku macam mana?

bukannya tidak berrsyukur

alhamdulillah.

tapi mana adilnya?

beginilah,mahu hidup senang jangan cari kawan yang makan kawan.

sekali dua boleh terima

banyak kali mau semput!

bila lecturer minta buat group work,serious aku menggigil.

aku takut benda yang sama berulang.

istilah group work buat mereka yang buta:

"kerja yang perlu dilakukan secara individu tanpa melibatnya mereka.

yang pasti siap pada hari presentation"

aku bukan jenis yang pandai bagi arahan,kau buat ini,kau siapkan itu.

bukan jenis aku.

bila mereka buat tak reti maksudnya aku la yang kene siapkan.

markah beb,tak boleh main!

tapi bila result keluar,diorang gempak kalah aku apa cerita?

yang berjaga sampai 2 3 pagi siapa?

yang lepak tenang cakap kat depan lecturer senang hidup

sampai kelas ayat biasa'cah,mana slides aku?'

senang hidup beb!

aku terbahak-bahak bila dapat result.

*tarik nafas

*hembus

mana adilnya?

mana adilnya kawan,mana?

biarlah Dia sahaja yang tahu itu semua

aku berserah.

manusia buta dengan penipuan,bisu dengan kebenaran

kelasss kau echa

2011-11-03T20:26:00.000-07:00

kelasss kau echa

pergi kelas bukannya nak belajar tapi melaram bagai.

kelasss kau echa

kelas strart pukul 10.30 pukul 10.40 baru nak gerak.

kelasss kau echa

orang lain bawak pensil case, buku bagai.kau bawak sebatang pen je.

kelass kau echa

kelas habis pukul 6.30 10 minit awal dah siap nak keluar

kelass kau echa

kelas petang masa bulan puasa kau malas nak pergi.alasannya penat

kelass kau echa

orang balik kolej buat kerja kau pagi esok baru nak buat.

kelass kau echa

hujung minggu orang pergi library study kau melepak dekat melake.

kelasss kau echa!

result dah keluar

kelass lagi ke kau echa?

BLACK&RED

2011-10-31T09:25:00.001-07:00

i have wings!

2011-10-29T10:51:00.000-07:00

hi people !

so how's your weekend?

doing great?

mine is awesome

except for the misunderstanding between several people but it's okay.

just one more thing that i can't forget,food in pizzahut.

have you tried the new pizza,ultimate cheezy or whatsoever.

it doesn't taste as good as they show dalam iklan yang beriya sedap tu.

biasa je.thing that made me angry was about the spaghetti.

i had tasted it before memang ok la.

but this time,it really plain,no garlic,seasoning,salt.

i paid rm10 for that spagetti!

siapa tak marah bukan?

haha

okay done.

now i'm happy cause i can spend my time with my gorgeous sistah !

the best shoot of today.haha

can you see me? i'm flying

i love wearing rings. i mean R-I-N-G-S !

end my day with tutti-frutti

ijustlovemylife

how will my future be

2011-10-28T11:16:00.000-07:00

enough with all drama melayu.no more crying exactly same like in the drama when the mother died because of cancer and left behind her daughter to the rumah anak yatim.

melayu always have this kind of ending and it goes around.

just read one of my old friend's blog.she posted about her pursued study in medicine.i heard she had lot of fun *ignore about all the quizzes and exam so it' will be fun.

potong-potong frong in lab,checking blood content and the best part is holding a knife and have the power to cut human body.cool right?

actually being a doctor is my biggest hope since i was young.

being exposed to house,scrubs and the new series is off the map encourage me a lot.

the best series is house because he can do everything that he want.

operate human brain,bodies,heart etc.

hospital is like his second house and he's the leader in it.

whenever my teachers asked me what is my dream?

i proudly answered i want to be a doctor.

during high school the teacher did asked the same question but i had to be more specific

heart surgeon definitely although i it's not my option.

i want to be same like house.

we can sketch our future but everything must be come from God.

after SPM that people clarified as the toughest spot in life

i managed to get 5A's

excluding science and maths subjects.

so how could i pursued in science program?

i have to put them all aside.

i went to english program interview

hoping that i can get the chance.it's my last hope.

God still with me,now i'm in Foundation program,Tesl UiTM

but somehow i still can't believe i'm not in medical program.

all the hopes had fade away

my dream to be a "doctor"

to own a clinic

it's same like a dream that will never comes true.

frustrating.

i keep thinking why He give me this way?

why this option had to be my path?

why?

i'm not good in english,i can't speak fluently,i'm not good in British accent,i fail in phonetics,i fail in everything related to english.

although i try my best to be a better person.

but i'm still not good enough

'why you choose Tesl?'

maybe this is the best path He had decide for me.i believe that everything happen have it own reason.

this quote had wake me up to face the reality.

i can't depend on my fake dream forever.

i have to jump out from this kind of situation.

i have to make a changes,small step ahead pun dah cukup.

maybe if i pursued in medical program i can't get 4flat,so i can't get scholarship to continue study or in other word i have to forget my dream to be a successful doctor.

or if i manage to be a doctor,maybe i'm afraid to cut human beings.

who knows right?

i really grateful God still give me a chance in my life.

a small chance mean a lot to me.

how will my future be?

maybe a journalist

a writer

who knows?

He know better than me.

*my new to-do-list for the next month:

check my level of understanding of kekuasaan Tuhan

need to read more untuk santapan rohani

be a positive-thinker

;)

i still have faith and islam as my guidance.

random people

2011-10-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

things are going crazy and i'm not sure who to blame.

but i'm pretty sure it's not my fault.

i give you everything that i could to make you happy but you never realize it.

you don't know how painful it is when i put too much effort to make you happy but you still not satisfied.

i'm not asking you to give a reward or etc

just treat me nicely and please smile, at least i try my best.

people need to live in these several rules

respect

love

honest

kind

and don't talk bullshit about other people

sifat manusia#3

2011-10-27T08:21:00.000-07:00

manusia suka tunjuk lagak

ini satu hal yang memang selalu kita dengar/lihat/lalui.

satu contoh:pergi ke kedai makan yang grand.ajak semua kawan-kawan lagak macam dah biasa makan kat situ.kawan-kawan semua terpegun la sebab kau mampu makan coke segelas RM5.padahal baru first time pegi tengok menu pun tak reti.tapi tunjuk lagak macam pro,yelah malu la beb nanti diorang gelak.

kenapa kena tunjuk lagak macam kau hebat?

tengok? bila waiter tanya kau macam-macam gagap jugak?

mana lagi malu?

*jawab dalam hati (;

contoh dua:time best-best house mates layan bola kau tiba-tiba mencelah dan dengan bangganya cakap 'offside!'

padahal tak pun,tapi bila kawan kau tanya beriya explain bagai nak mati.

law mana kau ikut entah.asalkan aku kena lagak pandai depan diorang.

*hetak kepala di meja.

puncanya,ego dalam diri masing-masing.

`memang lumrah bila tahap ke-ego-an itu menaik dengan drastiknya.

siapa boleh halang bukan?

inila manusia normal (:

sifat manusia#2

2011-10-24T02:29:00.000-07:00

2.manusia ni suka berkira

buat apa-apa kerja sekali pun mesti nak berkira.

contoh yang selalu berlaku in term of friends dulu,

'beb aku dah kemas meja,kau la pulak susun buku.takkan aku sorang je buat keje'

in term of family pulak.

'asyik-asyik aku je basuh baju,kau la pulka buat mana boleh macam ni'

*padahal baju semua mesin yang basuh bukannya manual.

kadang-kadang aku terfikir juga macam mana la boleh jadi berkira sangat.

tapi maths tak juga pandai-pandai.

kalau boleh nak semua benda yang dia buat mesti sama-rata

kalau aku buat ni dia pun kene buat ni,mana boleh duduk goyang kaki.

kadang-kadang betul juga,bukan nak berkira sangat

tapi kalau kita yang buat keje lebih bagai nak mati itu apa kes

dia duduk lepak sambil pegang phone last-last dapat gaji sama rata.

memang nak kena maki la kan.

tapi berpada-pada la

nak berkira sekali pun

sifat manusia #1

2011-10-24T01:58:00.000-07:00

manusia ni ada macam-macam sifat.

kalau dihimpunkan sekali pun lebih dari 1001

1. sifat manusia yang ingin tahu.

sifat ingin tahu ini memang perlu.senang cerita benda ni positif la,

kalau manusia tak ada sifat ni macam tak normal jugak.

contoh,kau pegang satu benda ni macam pelik je yang dikutip tepi jalan.

mestila nak tau benda tu apa bukan?

ni najis haiwan ke,batu ke apa ke/

kalau tak ada sifat ingin tahu dah lama kau sumbat masuk mulut.

takkan la nak makan najis beb?

senang cerita benda ni agak perlu la dalam kehidupan seharian

tapi ada jugak buruk benda ni.

bayangkan la budak-budak remaja yang baru nak up kan.

diorang ni sifat ingin tahu tu memang menggunung la.

kalau ingin tahu macam mana proses photosynthesis berlaku atau macam mana boleh dapat jawapan 3X itu bagus.

tapi kalau nak tahu bab-bab pornography ni apa cerita?

beriya bagai nak mati sampai bukak web sini sana apa cerita?

sekarang sennag je,internet semua ada,youtube google semua ada

senang,cuma search sahaja !

mungkin bagi sesetengah orang ini perkara normal.

iye la budak0udak nak matang biasala beb.

aku memang tak berapa nak faham perangai lelaki.

ada adik lelaki pun apa dia tahu?

tapi aku rasa bukan begitu cara nak katakan 'wei,aku dah matang beb sebab aku tengok #$@^%&*#$'

cuba kalau jadi kat adik/abang sendiri

*tepuk dahi ramai-ramai

kalau dapat tahu siapa-siapa yang kita kenal kantoi tengok benda jadah haram tu rasa macam bercampur baur tau.

rasa semacam je.kita nak tengok dia pun macam ntahla.

tambah-tambah lagi kalau family sendiri.

sepatutnya lelaki yang jaga kakak adik semua

ni sekali dia perangai minta penumbuk

*jom tepuk dahi sama-sama

apa-apa pun ni semua peer pressure.

sebelum terlambat baik kita perhati family kita terutama yang lelaki dengan siapa dia berkawan.

kawan memang bawa binasa beb

makin jelas

2011-10-19T11:44:00.000-07:00

kelihatan makin jelas tujuan ku.

kalau dulunya samar-samar bagai lampu kalimantan menyinari subuh hari kini terang-benderang.

ingatkan aku sudah betul.

cita-cita bagai, matlamat yang melampau,angan-angan yang tak sudah

semua tu buat aku sesat sendiri dalam hidup.

bukan sesang nak keluar balik beb.

kene ada kekuatan secara rohani

semua itu bukan tak boleh dicapai

insyaallah boleh cuma ia ambil masa

mungkin esok-lusa

mungkin setahun dua

mungkin juga berabad lamanya.

kalau manusia boleh gapai langit kenapa katakan tidak?

baru aku sedar kuasa Tuhan itu jelas nyata.

tak perlu tunggu-tunggu sekarang jugak boleh dapat.

emimpin yag berkalier tinggiyang duduk atas sana pun boleh jatuh sekelip mata je.

semuanya lumrah hidup

oh,sempena hari baru sekali blog aku tukar semua

www.aisyahrazak93.blogspot.com

new page

2011-10-19T11:29:00.000-07:00

tiba-tiba terasa macam nak mula hidup baru.

nak kata hari raya, dah lepas

new year lambat lagi

pendek kata aku mahu semua baru.

kalau boleh aku mahu semua bendadalam kepala ni buang jauh-jauh dalam dustbin

biar clear sikit macam newborn.

ntah kenapa malam-malam buta ni rasa semacam.

kelam-kelibut

mungkin terlalu jauh aku lupa Dia.

ya Allah, mohon petunjuk-Mu

ini la manusia,makin rancak bergembira menikmati dunia makin disisihnya Tuhan yang satu.

jahil sungguh aku

aku mahu jadi manusia yang gila hebat dan masih ingat pokok pangkal bagaimana aku masih berdiri tegak.

iya, aku mau jadi seperti helang megah bertebangan.

helang itu juga aku

pahit

2011-10-11T07:07:00.000-07:00

diam tanpa bersuara dikatakan sombong

megah bersuara dikatakan angkuh

jadi yang mana satu?

biarkan apa saja,aku tetap senang dengan cara sendiri.

kamu yang banyak bersuara,tidak perlu mengumpat orang lain,bukan?

melody

2011-10-08T07:18:00.000-07:00

'i wanna make you happy

i wanna make you feel alive'

-The Kooks-

Junk of The Heart (Happy)

separuh benar

2011-10-01T09:40:00.000-07:00

mereka kata aku gila.

perempuan jomblo yang gila.

kerana hari-hari aku berkata-kata depan cermin.

celah mana gila nya aku?

kalau dulu aku ada dia yang selalu saja dengar apa aku katakan.

tapi makin lama makin jauh berlari.

tidak pernah dia toleh ke belakang melihat aku yang tersungkur di tengah perjalanan.

beralih ke kertas kosong,makin gila aku.

habis tulis begitu saja menghilang sepi.

makan dek embun pagi.

kini aku ada kau,si cermin.

bila dipandang aku nampak aku yg separuh.

sebalik visual itu ada realitinya.

siapa sebalik cermin itu?

oh,itu aku melihat separuh diri yang benar.

aku bukan perempuan jomblo yang gila.

diri baru,jiwa lama

2011-10-01T08:36:00.000-07:00

makin lama makin benci aku pada diri sendiri.

ntah apa yang aku fikirkan

tapi yang pasti ada saja yang aku rasa salah.

serba tak kena.

lagi pula bila aku dikelilingi oleh mereka-mereka yg awesome.

terasa sangat loser di situ.

mereka hebat,lancang berkata kerana mereka tahu mereka hebat.

aku pula, sendirian di tepi sudut,diam membatu kerana aku takut apa yang ku katakan

di salah erti.

gelak tawa,kata-kata yg tidak habisan, sina-sana bersosial peduli apa.

mereka hebat.

aku suka berdiri di sudut kerana situ tiada lampu yang terang bak spotlight bak membuat show di pentas.

tiada siapa pandang,tiada siapa dengar.

bebas bukan?

pokoknya, hari mendatang ini aku mahu rupa baru.

bukan plastic surgery,mungkin benda baru.

apa-apa saja.

jgn risau, tidak mungkin jumpa aku dengan hidung yg mancung bagai.

haha

sifat aku bagaikan serigala buas itu harus diubah.

*perlu

tapi jgn risau jiwa aku tetap lama.

masih sama

hari lepas-lepas

2011-09-28T08:17:00.000-07:00

satu minggu suntuk berdepan dengan final exam.

macam tak ada apa-apa je

tapi hati masih gerun,memikirkan possibility yg akan berlaku.

'macam mana kalau ada fail ye?'

'3.0 boleh dapat ke?'

'kalau aku fail kene bayar balik ke duit gov tu??'

*soalan ke-3 agak bodoh tapi harus dipertimbangkan :)

hari ahad habis paper CTU081 dengan hati yg membara aku nak balik rumah.

tapi paper tu massih dijawab dengan tenang.

walaupun setengah hall dah kosong,bunyi cengkerik je

biarkan ! habiskan dulu jawab !

straight ke seremban

nak kejar train pukul 8.30 train last!

sampai-sampai,kaunter tutup

baru pukul 6 ptg kot !

tanya kaunter ktm,mmg sah tutup.

call bahagian ETS dia boleh cakap takde ke ipoh mlm tu ?

-.-

habis tu kat internet tu ada tulis ets silver-ipoh kenapa?

dengan banyak barangnya,takkan la nak naik komuter ke KL sentral.

malu beb !

pilihan yg ada:

1. naik komuter ke KL sentral

2. pilihan pertama

3. tak payah fikir lagi, komuter lagi 5 min nak sampai.

peringatan

penggunaan bahasa yang agak kasar untuk menunjukkan perasaan yang real kepada pembaca

sekian :)

shit, dengan luggage + bag bagai bawak juga ke komuter.

tempat paling strategic, tepi pintu

ahh, tak ksah la ganggu orang nak kluar masuk ke yg penting bag aku nak letak mana?

seremban - kl sentral

1 jam aku diri beb !

1 jam bukan kejap -.-

sampai BTS lagi ramai masuk

semua nak ke KL sentral.

dahla surrounded by mat indon + bangla semua adala

aku sorang je perempuan kat situ *2 la termasuk akila :)

tiba-tiba ada seorg lelaki ni offer seat

dia ingat aku pregnant ke???

i really appreciate,tapi adfa lagi yang memerlukan,bukan

mungkin muka separuh mati kot -.-

ada sorng bangla ni boleh pulak himpit-himpit aku.

kau ingt aku tak faham bahas kau.

lagi sekali kau dekat aku bagi side-kick.

lelaki kat hujung tu tengok je,'apsal tak tolong?'

mmg shit betul makhluk-makhluk asing ni.

sampai KL sentral semua berpusu nak kluar

'macam mana nak kluar ni?'

nasib baik ada sorang ni tolong bwkkan luggage yg besar bagai nak mati tu

*terharu

destinasi kedua: kaunter ETS

'cik, ke ipoh yg terdekat ada?'

semua habis dik

'hah, habis?'

*ETS every hour ada,macam pelikkan habis

sial! org ramai-ramai ni nak pegi mana beb!

takde pilihan dah

ke kaunter KTMB

'tiket ke ipoh ada?'

ada last, ke butterworth

'okay,alhamdulillah'

terbalas juga sakit hati dengan makan McD

dahla PMS lagii la membara

haihh

keretapi lembab

2jam baru sampai

layanla movie dgn Nescafe panas

di kantin

sampai 1.30pg baru sampai

selama ni aku percaya e-ticket di KTMB.sampaila seremban buat hal

serius aku rasa agak shit di seremban.

memang b$@#

teringat makcik aku ada cakap,'nak kawin dengan orang sana ke?'

dulu aku gelak

sekarang aku jawab

memang takla,serious aku benci orang sana.

-.-

2011-09-16T06:11:00.000-07:00

kebal juga diri ni.

sebab aku mampu lagi hidup walau ada saja ara melintang.

terasa kebalnya apabila hari yang disangka redup berbubah jadi hujan disambar petir sekali.

kebalnya terasa juga bila ada saja kata-kata laknat digempar-gempurkan di belakang tanpa aku sedar.

tapi aku masih mampu tersenyum.

harus dibangga dengan diri sendiri.

mungkin ada kaitannya dengan namaku, aisyah.

nampak sahaja biasa,tapi nama ini la yang menjadikan aku cukup gah dipandangan mataku sendiri.

ni semua kuasa Tuhan.

siapa kata aku tak bersyukur?

Tuhan saja yang tahu apa aku tahu (:

aku rasa aku hebat seperti matahari.

tinggi jauh di langit,bangga sekali dengan sinarannya.

sebab dia tahu manusia perlu dia.kalau boleh jangan diberi peluang bulan datang di malam hari. bagaikan hari dia yang punya.

aku juga rasa sebegitu hebat.

tapi dunia tak nampak aku sebab aku manusia normal

sama seperti mereka yang lain.

apa yang lebih? tiada.

apa yang perlu dibanggakan dengan diri ini?

aku kebal.

sudah aku beritahu bukan?

diri ini memang kebal.

datangkan saja apa-apa sekalipun, aku tetap kebal.

cuma satu yang boleh menjatuhkan kekebalan ku.

kuasa Tuhan.

hidupku,matiku,rezekiku,jauh sekali dari kuasa ku.

aku kebal.

aku tidak perlu kau sama sekali.

untuk apa?

untuk kau jadi pengawal? seperti anjing menjaga tuannya?

untuk kesat mata ini bila ada saja titisan air yang mengalir?

sumpah, aku boleh buat iti semua sendiri.

kerana aku kebal

langsung tinggal diri aku.

kerana aku sudah kata

aku kebal

crossed finger

2011-09-15T10:02:00.000-07:00

it's getting worse

special notes dedicate to my lovely mum *smile

mum, i' m sorry for not calling you for the past 3 weeks. I've been busy studying for my test.all the lecturers are being cruel to me. they push me to study and do well for the test.mum, it's not my fault. whenever i read the book, it's like i'm watching a transformer movie.i need to finish it *smirk. btw mum, i will sit for final exam this Monday september the 19th. i know it's your birthday. do you still want to celebrate it? no need la. kidding! i will call you, believe in me. i believe when people said doa seorang ibu sangat berkat. so, please pray for me.

p/s: psttt, i love you and i miss you so much.no need to reply because i know you will say 'whatthehell are you talking about!' kiddin.

i put smiley face to brighten your day (:

love,aisyahrazak

itu rezeki

2011-09-09T04:19:00.000-07:00

"dia tu sembahyang pun tak pernah, baca al-quran jauh sekali.tapi berjaya je aku tengok"

................................................

pandangan manusia yang cetek ilmu.

sembahyang itu tiang agama bukan?

apa lagi yang perlu dipersoalkan?

rezeki masing-masing sudah ditentukan

kita siapa untuk menduga kebesaran-Nya.

dia berjaya, jawatan besar, duit sini-sana, senang kata lengkap semua.

tapi dahinya tidak pernah sujud di sejadah.

apa pandangan kamu?

bagi saya, saya tak mentafsirkan kejayaan itu sebagai rezeki jikalau sedemikian rupa sifatnya yang lalai.

kita tafsirkan itu sebagai ujian dari Allah.

sesuatu tuah yang datang tidak semestinya rezeki. mungkin juga ujian agar kita sedar yang kita sudah tersimpang jauh dari jalan yang sebenar.

Allah beri nikmat itu agar kita boleh sedar akan segala yang berlaku dan kembali kepada-Nya.

bukan begitu?

dia berjaya tanpa sembahyang, jangan pula kita ikut rentak sedemikian.

itu salah.

mana tahu, mungkin tuah sama seperti dia.

tapi kalau hidup dalam kegelapan untuk apa?

untuk apa hidup tanpa keredhaan dari-Nya.

itu hidup seperti tin kosong.

tiada guna.

ujian tidak semestinya dalam bentuk yang sukar.

berjalan dan tersadung batu, itu ujian.

berjaya dalam peperiksaan, itu juga mungkin ujian.

mana tahu, kita terlalu bongkak terus lupa semua.

manusia senang lalai (:

ketahuilah, masing-masing ada rezeki tersendiri.

arah hidup, rentak semua sudah ditentukan.

selagi kita masih sembah kepada Yang Satu, selagi itu akan ada kesenanagn dalam segala benda.

Dari Abu Hurairah r.a katanya, Rasulullah SAW bersabda:

”Apabila kamu melihat seseorang dikurniakan kelebihan dengan harta melimpah-limpah dan dengan kecantikan, maka lihatlah pula kepada orang yang serba kekurangan.”

Dia Maha Mengetahui

2011-09-03T10:53:00.000-07:00

'nanti dah besar nak jadi apa?'

'nak jadi doktor'

'habis SPM nanti nak sambung apa?'

'medic, insyaallah'

itu hanyalah angan-angan kosong yang mana mungkin boleh capai.

dulu-kala benda begini nampak mudah sahaja.

tak perlu fikir bagai untuk masa depan. sebab sudah tentu apa yang diimpikan akan terjadi.

seperti mimpikan putera raja datang selamatkan.

pernah terjadi kah?

*senyum

'yang mana satu sambung medic tu?'

'siapa?'

'bukan aisyah ke?'

'saya?'

*terpana juga buat seketika.

walaupun soalan dia cukup mudah.tiba-tiba diri jadi kaku terus imbas kembali masa dulu bila aku beriya mahu jadi seorang doktor.

tugas mulia,bukan?

aku senyum dan jawab:

'oh, tak.seorang pensyarah insyaallah bukan doktor'

satu soalan yang membuatkan aku terfikir masa depan.

mahu jadi apa ni?

kalau ikutkan laluan yang sudah dirancang dahulu, memang sudah terpesong jauh.

perlu difikirkan semula laluan baru.

mana mungkin jadi seorang pensyarah,di hujung minggu berubah kepada seorang doktor.

mana mungkin (:

berkejar-kejar merebut gelaran "doktor" di pangkal nama.

sebab gelaran itu dirasakan amat hebat.

tapi untuk apa? disanjung?

nama saja doktor tapi pesakitnya tidak diendahkan untuk apa?

nama sahaja seornag pemimpin tapi negaranya kucar-kacir untuk apa?

seorang polis yang gah, tapi kalau anak-anaknya makan duit rasuah untuk apa?

seorang pendidik yang dikatakan tugas mulia tapi makan gaji buta untuk apa?

Dia yang merancang hidup kita,kita hanya menduga apa yang bakal terjadi.

mungkin ini keputusan yang terbaik dalam hidup.

mungkin sudah termaktub dalam qada dan qadar ini jalan yang harus diambil.

usah pertikaikan lagi.

insyaallah saya bakal jadi seorang pensyarah yang betul atas landasannya bukan sahaja elok dari luaran tapi segi agamanya juga.semua ini dengan izin Allah :)

hari mulia

2011-08-31T11:57:00.000-07:00

salam dan selamat hari raya !

selamat

hari raya

*beriya nak nyanyi jugak

1 syawal

hari yang penuh dengan kemuliaan dan keberkatan.

tahun ini sambut biasa-biasa sahaja.

tapi masih gempak gitu :)

awal pagi, orang pertama yang akan bersuara mestila mak

'bangunla! harini raya!

blablabla

30 minit selepas itu

anak-anak dara bangun dan beriya nak bersiap bagai

-.-

salam salam semua

dan MAKAN!

*serius saya makin gemuk

ini gambar wajib :)

opah :)

dia pun sibuk nak gigit camera

"senah, cantik baju kau" *nada menyampah

kak faizah dan anak2

sampai malam orang datang.

rasa cool pulak bila ada saudara ramai

*haha!

the reason why i love hari raya:

ramai orang datang

pakai baju kurung cantik-cantik

makan banyakbanyak

perang mercun sini-sana

satu keluarga berhimpun

*raya hari-hari pun boleh.tapi tak sanggup eden nak hidang makanan dan hulur duit raya hari-hari. semput!

i have change

2011-08-27T10:35:00.000-07:00

you never think that i can do it.

you always think that i don't know anything
you always treat me like a kid who need someone to guide.
a little girl that might be lost in her own life.

no, i'm not!

that's the reason why i always pretend that i know everything
and i can do everything by my own.
i hate when you said

'you have to do it by your own.don't wait others to do it for you.huh, there are lot of things you should learn.'

do you think, you know everything?
i'm not a kid anymore

'she/he really cares about you,but she/he doesn't know how to show it.'
stop the craps!

if you really want to take care of me, why you said something that really make me hurt?
why?
why you have to do annoying face when i try to say something?
why you have to say something that show you know everything?
why you have to make me feel like a loser?
why i have to be a stupid person?

please give me the reasons.

that's why i hate to talk with you.
i hate to share with you about new things.
i hate to ask your opinion
i hate you.
really, i hate you.

don't blame me.
you're the one that treat me like i'm a loser, doesn't know anything,the perfect word
i'm stupid.
yes i'm stupid

i never regret in making any decision and i never regret to have you in my life.

sincerely,

aisyah

i owe you a big time

2011-08-22T06:23:00.000-07:00

last weekend i'm so excited to packing all my stuff and took a bus to TBS

horray!

where are we going

to KL

where are we going

to KL

*dora the explorer :)

so around 2pm we arrived at TBS and straight to masjid jamek

such a heaven for women

because the place full of colorful baju kurung, kebaya,shawls and etc

right place to buy baju kurung for raya at a reasonable price.

imagine my friends and i being pushed by people

who are so eager to buy things.

it's like an ocean full of fishes

walking in different way and keep pushing you till you can't stop for a minute to buy your ideal baju kurung.

we just stared and keep walking :)

after buying all the stuff

*i mean them,not me

we stopped at the corner to take a breath

then my friend yelled

"echa, my purse!'

'what do you mean by my purse?'

''it's gone!'

she didn't realize when her purse was stolen.

we went to police office and make a report.

things in her purse:

rm300

identity card

bank card

tickets bus to melaka*3 of us

thank god i know where is JPN to make new ID, bank islam to blocked her card and make the new one.

the main point is we were walking to maju junction area and spent for about 3hours to settle it down.

*phewww

5pm we went back home.

and some rest for the next day

jyeh!

the next day, we went to BB.

still eager for shopping although we are running out of money.

haha!

from sungai wang we move to TS.

ala-ala jalan-jalan cari makan kan?

saturday

so packed of people

teenagers mostly -.-'

we were deciding to go to danau kota uptown but amani need some rest.

'amani, let's go'

'amani, you said you want to go to upown'

'amani?'

i was talking to the tv

-.-

btw, i love spending my weekends with them

have fun before we went back to melaka

pftt

psst, currently in melaka while posting this :)

trying to be nice

2011-08-15T08:46:00.000-07:00

salam and hi blogger!

salam ramadhan

*cepat-cepat la raya ;)

now i'm in new college TUN HASSAN

ROOM 118

*saja buat iklan mana tau ada siapa-siapa nak datang lawat haha.

i just want to share something that i have been thinking about it lately.

if you don't mind please share your opinion blogger!

it just random post okay,no offence.

people like to give respond for those who are more attractive and have a pleasant attitude.

when he/she say something, everyone will give attention and respond

'awesome!'

in fact, it's not their idea at all!

they just get it from people who are shy and and afraid to give their brilliant opinion.

in other word, from a community of NERD and not so-FAMOUS people

what do you think?

i have been through this before

errm, always??

but i'm not trying to say that i'm NERD person.

it just happen.

the thing is, i have said it before but they don't give any respond

when other person said it all of the class give respond

whatthefish!

it is still the same

idea

words

sentences

intonation

i hate when it happen to me.

i want to scream

'hey! she copy my words! i'm the one who said it first!'

do you think they will believe in you?

*smile

*bite nails

people, world never judge you by your heart

they judge you by your appearance

by your flawless skin

by your slim shape body

by your big eyes

that's the only reason i want to highlight

don't blame yourself.

they have no right to be a selfish.

it just you, who are so nice with them :)

lost

2011-08-13T06:23:00.000-07:00

lostsomeone said they don't need anyone to guide them

someone said they can live without a guidance

someone said they are strong enough and good enough to live.

someone think they are clever and don't need anyone to guide them

but i said, i need someone to guide me

i need someone to say that i have made wrong decision

i need someone that said

'hey so many grammatical errors lah dey'

we're not perfect enough to say that 'hey i'm right!'

sometimes we have to admit that we're wrong

we have to accept when someone say ' your answers are wrong,you should change it'

it's not a crime to ask for someone help

'is it right?'

'should i change it to blabla so that i will sound much better'

'do you think my words are good enough?'

'can you list some of the bombastic word?'

but don't forget to say

t-h-a-n-k y-o-u :)

when someone say 'you should change it to is lah'

etc

don't ever reply

'yeah i know,it just misspelling okay.not a big deal'

-.-

learn to accept others opinion okay

mak saya kata, if you want to success in your life, let them be a teacher

we are awesome people!

2011-08-12T09:43:00.000-07:00

salam blogger

last night we're in TUN FATIMAH COLLEGE

and we'll move on to new college!

horray

-.-

far from class

far from cafeteria

far from atm

far from everything

yeah horray -,-

i don't know why out of sudden we HAVE to move immediately .

why don't we just move next sem?

it will be more easier right?

but now, i have to rent a car

carrying my luggage from fourth floor

back pain

fyi, i have to walk about 30min to the class

it's like south-north

why don't we wait till all the building complete?

why

why!

enough.

there's nothing i can do

enjoy last day in this room

pstt, can you hear me?

Ms Elmo and izni ;)

elmo say 'hello'

what should i say?

haha

our moment in this room will lasting forever

room 2303

level 4

tun fatimah college

let me sing

2011-08-08T06:18:00.000-07:00

august

lot of things to do:

assignments *for sure

moving to new college

test 3X

fasting

what else?

gosh! my calender full of event@task that need to be complete before end of August.

tired -.-

one more assignment,and my head will explode.

*BANG!

Ms do you know that our world are lack of trees?

One and one-half acres of rainforest are lost every second with tragic consequences for both developing and industrial countries and the most important thing

PAPER

so,can you please stop giving me assignment

go-green!

and i miss my home

i miss to eat nasi ayam mak!

udang masak merah

everything la!

oh my,where can i buy chicken rice same like my mum do.

T.T

stop acting like a child.

*i'll try

okay let me sing this song.

they make me smile

2011-08-07T01:19:00.000-07:00

salam and happy ramadhan blogger :)

how's your ramadhan?

mine, great!

yesterday we went to Malacca for 'berbuka puasa' with amoy fatin,amani and bella.

although we all have something to do which is more important than going to Malacca and it is

compulsory.

haha!

i didn't put food pictures.don't worry :)

me,amoy and bella

i look like a mum with 3 daughters -.-

don't kiss me ;)

i love them so much

okay, now i really want to kiss you guys

muah!muah!

pstt,mak suddly i miss your udang masak merah and bayam :(

yang mana satu?

2011-08-02T07:03:00.000-07:00

gadis A digelar klon hana tajima

pemakaian dia memang stail

dari selendang berwarna-warni hingga ke kasut tumit tinggi 4inch.

berjalan sikit saja ke kelas shades sebesar tangan mesti ada atas kepala.

sampai kelas bukan buku yang dikeluarkan tapi lotion dulu,jaga kulit.

setiap hujung minggu waktu keramat untuk dia.

keluar bersama kawan-kawan dan membeli-belah.

pantang nampak baju baru di MNG cepat je sambar.

yela,mahu jadi orang pertama di campus pakai sedemikian.

waktu malam orang lain buat assignment dia habiskan dengan menghadap laptop mencuba stail pemakaian tudung baru.

semalam ada orang pakai sama seperti dia.

tak ada class!

mesti kene ubah cara lain.

lain pula bagi si gadis B

bagi dia memakai baju kurung serta tudung yang terlipat kemas lagi selesa.

tambah-tambah lagi dipadankan dengan kasut bertutup ayu.

lelaki mana yang tidak cair bila terpandang wajahnya yang dihiasi senyuman manis.

selangkah sahaja ke kelas, sudah ramai yang jatuh hati.

tidak perlu lotion semua,air sembahyang tadi sudah memadai.

hujung minggu baginya waktu yang paling santai untuk mensucikan diri.

masjid itu destinasinya.

membaca al-quran dan melakukan solat hajat.

lebih manis jika menghabiskan waktu dengan membaca al-mathurat.

di malam hari dia menghabiskan masa dengan memperbetulkan tajwid dan cara bacaan.

baginya itu perkara penting yang perlu dilakukan sebelum tidur.

bagaimana tidak lelaki-lelaki termimipikannya

jika sedemikian rupa sifatnya.

si gadis A atau si gadis B pilihanmu?

let's make it simple

2011-08-01T02:17:00.000-07:00

first day fasting in melake.

such a great experience

but for someone that usually experience fasting month away from their family,it's not special anymore.

but it's still great experience.

5.30pm and i already deciding what to eat for berbuka.

too early right?

haha

hari pertama berpuasa,biasala :)

and first day puasa lagu raya dah on air kat radio.

macam, it's too early la man.

you make me thinking about going home eating rendang,ketupat,kuih raya.

baju raya pun tak beli lagi.

my target for this year

i want to make ramadhan this year more simple and not wasting money.

pergi bazar baru half way dah beli macam-macam makanan dan tak makan.

perut dah full,tak larat macam-macam alasan.

so people buy food that you will eat it.okay

jangan membazir :)

happy ramadhan people

selamat berpuasa

2011-07-31T01:01:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT BERPUASA BLOGGER!

*jangan nak buatbuat tak ingat ye :)

i remembered 2 years ago when i spent ramadhan in kedah with my friends

full of joyous and we had fun!

i felt like the new me when it come to fasting month.

i don't know why.

it's like nur brighten my face and washed out all my sins before.

haha!

yesterday i went to Malacca wit my room mates

amal izni and anis

to buy some stuff for ramadhan and enjoy last day before fasting.

for sure our trip full of

eating

i bought al-quran because i left it in home.

it's a must for fasting month.

every year mesti cuba khatam al-quran

sebab bulan puasa banyak keberkatan dan pahala

after half an hour walking in mahkota parade,dataran pahlawan

suddenly i felt pain on my right shoulder.

seriously it's hurt.

'amal,sakit bahu la.i need someone to massage my shoulder'

'sakit sangat ke? your bag tu berat sangat kot.what did you put in your bag?'

............................................

'oh my god! amal i think ini balasan untuk segala dosa yang i buat. i put al-quran in my bag!'

'what a stupid joke.but yeah,you deserved it.haha!'

i know it kinda funny but this conversation really make me realized.

everything that i did before this.

the bad thing,things that i KNOW i shouldn't do it.

so for this fasting month, leave behind all the bad thing that you USUALLY do before this.

let's we celebrate ramadhan with new attitude,new personality

and just be the new person!

SELAMATMENYAMBUTBULANRAMADHAN

empty

2011-07-26T08:04:00.000-07:00

don't ask me why recently all my posts sounds stupid,useless

and i don't know how to describe but i'm pretty sure it sound like i'm going to die

*haha!

one thing for sure

it's not about couple or etc

*BIG NO!

but if you say this statement maybe it's true

that I'M BROKE!

*haha

stop laughing.

okay why Malaysia so hot

specifically M-E-L-A-K-A

*it's a fact

gosh,imaging me sitting in air-conditioner room but i still feel same like i'm standing under the sun.

done complaining about weather.

let's move on to new topic!

sometime i feel like i'm lost in my own life

'but you're wearing contact lenses right?'

yeah, i'm not blind!

it just you feel empty

it's suddenly happen

without any reason

everything you do you can't finish it

there's no end

suddenly you feel like to shout or just write it down on your diary

but it never help

for those who feel emptiness

we are not same

2011-07-25T06:27:00.000-07:00

definitely we're not same at all.

you have a small eyes

but mine is big

you have round face

but mine is oval

you have small legs

but mine is big like an elephant

so we're not same at all

but you still talk with me although i always avoiding from talking with you

but why?

although i always pretend that i'm cooler than you.

*but it's a fact right? haha

then i realized

although we're not same at all.

we doesn't share any same interest

but we're still same!

we speak in same language

we live in same place

we study together

and the best part is we are

j-u-s-t s-a-m-e

;)

thank you for being nice with me

i really appreciate

so, friend?

English awesome !

2011-07-24T23:30:00.000-07:00

saturday

23rd july 2011

SK BUKIT BERINGIN

ENGLISH EUPHORIA

wearing a 'mango' name tag

echa :)

alhamdulillah semua okey

no problem at all.

nasib baik tak ada student yang buat riot

haha!

kak echa umur berapa?

*mata bulat macam bola ping pong

semua penat lelah berbaloi la.

stayed up sampai pukul 3pagi siapkan preparation semua berbaloi.

sampai mata macam panda dan menguap sepanjang masa.

semuanya BERBALOI!

*malas nak rotate picture pandai-pandaila pusing kepala haha :)

small thing in my mind

2011-07-19T08:45:00.001-07:00

when you friend with someone

don't cross the line

don't let your mind control your feeling

don't ever think to be more than friend

because it's suck.

it will make you feel awkward.

imaging someone that really close to you

who listening to your problem everyday

spend a long day at the park while drinking coke

become your special one.

doesn't it sound weird and of course awkward!

okay listen

maybe i don't need a special person in my life for this time being

i just need a best friend

that's it!

who willingly to be by my side whenever i need

spend money just to call me

text-ing although it just a simple conversation

take care of me when i sick

and the one that always popped in my mind

believe me, best friend is more precious than other

don't be ashamed to admit that you're in love with your best friend

it's trivial thing people ;)

i lucky to have you as my best friend

can i say that i'm in love with you

ahahha kiddin :)

A single rose can be my garden,a single friend my world

2011-07-17T09:44:00.000-07:00

salam and hi everyone!

ingat tak post before this saya beriya cerita pasal gulai lemak cili padi warisan Negeri Sembilan?

*hahaha

satu hari sakit perut dan muntah.

seriously, memang pedas.

TAK NAK MAKAN LAGI

oh okay back to the main story

*itu kisah sampingan je :)

sometimes when we try to be a better person

people can misunderstand about our kindness

right?

when we try to help our friends people can easily said this word

S-H-O-W-E-D O-F-F

before you said this word, please open your mind widely

kalau betul saya nak showed off mesti saya cakap

'korang tengokla aku tolong minah ni angkat barang.baik kan aku?'

ini baru betul-betul showed off la dude.

and sometimes when we try to friend with someone else that are really nice

people will think yang kita ambil kesempatan untuk kesenangan sendiri

*whatthefish

yang paling best kalau different gender.

orang lain yang terlebih-over cakap itu-ini.

'dia sangkut dgn mamat itu la ini la'

tiba-tiba je dapat publisiti murahan bukan?

again this is general statement

tiada kene-mengena dengan mana-mana pihak okay.

no offense :)

saya bukan jenis yang memilih kawan.

semua orang boleh jadi kawan

as long dia okey and know how to respect other people.

ada je kawan saya yang merokok,kaki clubbing etc

sebagai kawan kita cuba ubah mereka

tak susah bukan?

The friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you.

~Elbert Hubbard, The Notebook, 1927

even kawan kita buruk mana pun perangai dia.

kita masih sayang dia as a friends

that's true friend :)

i'm coming home

2011-07-16T11:00:00.000-07:00

mood: rumah

*for sure

before that

going to seremban

nurul's house

kinda tired

lunch in restaurant warisan

in negeri sembilan

the food is SUPERB!

this is best bro

*nabil maharajalawak :D

this is the right place for you guys to eat gulai lemak

yg sgt pedas

*terlampau pedas

golai lomak cili api den cubo

HAHAHAHA!

kat sini pun ada stalker

haha

okay nite peeps :)

stop shouting

2011-07-14T08:41:00.000-07:00

i want to shout your name so it echoes in every room

siapa?

musuh yang paling disegani dengan mereka yang disayangi.

kalau musuh mungkin ayat yang akan digunakan sebegini:

'i hate you! go get a life!'

dan kepada yang disayangi:

'i really miss you guys.please call me'

i hate being in this situation

*again

but i have no choice

just move on dude!

kalau nak tahu perangai sebenar seseorang kita kene bermusafir

atau erti kata lain,cuba tinggal dengan dia buat jangka masa yang lama

masa tu, baru tahu dia bagaimana orangnya

kalau dulunya pendiam,senyum macam kerang busuk, cakap pun ayat tersusun rapi

padahal lantang bercakap besar,hilang semua adab sopan.

inila manusia

*general statement

mana mungkin nak jumpa orang yang sama pemikirannya dengan kita.

mana mungkin wujud mereka yang sama seperti apa yang kita mahu.

itu memang mustahil.

tapi sekurang-kurangnya beradabla seperti apa yang kita boleh terima,bukan?

masa susahla baru nak teringat mereka yang dulunya susah senang bersama

barula nak capai phone dan cari nombor mereka yang tak pernah nak call.

masa tu baru tahu susahnya hidup tanpa ada mereka yang ambil berat tentang kita

*senyum sendiri

i miss you guys so much!

A L-O-T!

there's no one can replace your place as my best friend

that are willingly to be my pillow,tissues and my only elmo :)

gosh! i miss them so much

hazirahyusoff.nadiatarsik.wani.sya.fashe.niniizwani.ciknab.shiela.sunnyazmin.adeebfiqri.

kay.diela.asmieza.syimir.izzah

rindu saya tak?

tak?

nevermind -.-

random notes

2011-07-11T00:04:00.000-07:00

like an apple on the tree

hiding all behind the leaves

i was difficult to reach

but you picked me

like a shell upon the beach

just another pretty piece

i was difficult to see

but you picked me

...................................................................

you're beautiful

you're beautiful it's true

i saw your face

in a crowded place

and i don't know what to do

cause i'll never be with you

please be my boyfriend

2011-07-08T10:00:00.000-07:00

guess what

i watched transformer

whoaa!!!!

okay noob

everyone already watch that movie okay

*loser

good movie

i really enjoy and yeah it's worth!

i laughed,cry and then screaming and laughed back.

i'm so emotional

-.-

there' a part when the robots make a joke.

but no one respond.

everyone so serious except me

i laughed and said 'ohmaigod so funny'

*everyone looked at me

maybe you will understand it if you know robot language

*haha

oh my, why optimus prime so handsome?

when he erm it ermm the robot ( i don't know what should i call)

change into robot i was stunning and i said

'be my boyfriend please?????'

*begging

why they change the actress?

where's Megan Fox?

but it still okay

except the part when she's running wearing high heels and white jacket

it doesn't make sense -.-

anyway

i give five out of five

for the graphic,images,plot

really cool

ps* i will dreaming about them the Red Alert,Ironhide Sideswipe,Cliffjumper and for sure bumblebee!

*u will be mine :)

fatin :)

after watching transformer